today, didn’t go at all how I expected it to.
usually, when moms have me come to the hospital, to capture their first born, meeting their sibling, it’s pretty stinkin’ adorable.
(not that you weren’t adorable)
it’s just that, most times, there is holding, and kissing, and lots of questions involved.
but as soon as I walked in, before you came up.
your momma, she was a wreck.
she told me, that YOU, jackson, YOU were her baby.
your sweet sister, well, she was a surprise.
they weren’t planning on her, yet, anyways.
but life is funny like that.
she was a lot easier to come by, than you were.
almost two years ago.
yet, still here she was.
and your momma, while she LOVED this sweet little girl, with a head full of hair. . and a tiny bow.
she was so worried about you.
she didn’t know, if you’d understand.
she didn’t know, if she’d got to love you, long enough yet.
enough, for you to know,
that there was nothing,
and no one,
that could make her love you less.
but those, those are hard conversations for a 22-month old.
she started crying before you even made it through the door.
she knew, what I didn’t.
you, were, and (most likely) will forever be.
the ultimate, momma’s boy.
you liked her.
you said her name.
she was ok.
until she found a spot on your momma’s lap.
that wasn’t very good at all.
not yet, anyways.
I watched, as your tears, broke your momma’s heart.
but I smiled, on the inside.
so big, that it made me have a few tears too.
there is this thing.
and their boys.
there is this unconditional, unexplainable kind of love.
that even if it isn’t felt, all the time.
it’s always there.
but aside from that,
there’s this other kind of love.
a big brother, kind of love.
one that you don’t know about yet.
but you’ll soon learn.
one, that you’ll be able,
to slowly ease your momma’s fears with.
but right now,
she just wants you to be happy.
and she knows,
makes you happy.
and she isn’t 100% positive,
there is enough of her, to go around. . .
because though you’ll want her.
someone else, will now need her too.
and man, that’s tough, on a momma like yours.
the good news is.
your love, will grow.
for that sister of yours.
maybe not today.
or anytime soon.
but one day.
you’ll love your momma,
so much more.
because she gave you a sister.
who is going to love you like crazy>>>
and to have so many people,
who love you so much. . .
well, I’m pretty sure, that makes you one of the luckiest kids in the world.
even, if it doesn’t feel like it, yet.